Signing Off

It is with a heavy heart that I have decided not to continue my journey on Insta, Twitter or blog. Unfortunately, navigating this journey of trying to shed light on narcissism and domestic violence has caused more harm to my healing. I have encountered more flashbacks, triggers, anxiety and nightmares so it is time forContinue reading “Signing Off”

Life Milestones

When thinking about life, remember: Day to day life is a challenge. A struggle. So many ups, so many downs, so many paths unknown. No amount of guilt can change the past and no amount of anxiety can change the future. Always have light guiding you to your serenity.

Haunting Nightmares

All day feeling on edge not knowing why. Hands constantly shaking as if hopped up on caffeine. Heart beating loudly as if asking to be heard. Mind racing to figure out “what’s happening?”. At night, the answer finally comes. A flashback. Something not thought of since high school and couldn’t recall after waking. Sleepless nightContinue reading “Haunting Nightmares”

Failure… Life failed me, I failed me

Last night I cried myself to sleep wishing I was back with my ex. That despite all the abuse, I would at least feel wanted. All I have ever wanted, all anyone with a soul wants…is to be loved for who they are. They want to hear “I love you” daily, be held and huggedContinue reading “Failure… Life failed me, I failed me”

You deserve happiness

Forgiveness is the best form of love. It takes a strong person to say sorry and an even bigger person to forgive. As we embark on the 2019 Holiday season, remember it’s okay to take a break, a moment for yourself. It’s okay to be selfish if it means rediscovering your own power and happiness.Continue reading “You deserve happiness”

Am I going insane or is this really happening?

Emotional abuse usually takes place in private, meaning there are no witnesses validating your experience. After months or years of being emotionally abused, you begin to distrust your perceptions and even your sanity. Since you have invested your time and your heart in the relationship and your world revolves around him / her, you endContinue reading “Am I going insane or is this really happening?”

Is behavior of a narcissist under his/her control?

Consider this: They turn ON their charm for outsiders They can adjust their behavior instantly They ‘perform’ for their fans / audience When the audience leaves, OFF comes the mask. “Narcissists are keen observers of their potential prey. They seize upon the insecure, unsure & chronically pessimistic. It’s incumbent on the recovering SLD (Self-Love Deficient)Continue reading “Is behavior of a narcissist under his/her control?”

Think you can spot a narcissist?

Spotting a narcissist is difficult unless you’re a qualified mental health expert, and even then it can be difficult to diagnose. When you’re romantically involved with one, it’s even harder to spot a narcissist because you’re not thinking, “Are they a narcissist?” You’re wondering if how you’re being treated is healthy and sustainable in theContinue reading “Think you can spot a narcissist?”

Narcissism…the original con artist

Fewer than 200K US narcissistic cases are diagnosed per year making narcissism a rare disease. Narcissistic personality disorder is found more commonly in men with symptoms that include an excessive need for admiration, disregard for others’ feelings, an inability to handle any criticism, and a sense of entitlement. The cause is unknown but likely involvesContinue reading “Narcissism…the original con artist”

People just don’t understand… no one gets [me]

People with anxiety don’t have a train of thought. They have seven trains on four tracks that narrowly avoid each other when paths cross, and all the conductors are screaming. Every day is a challenge because you’re battling with yourself to go out and be social. You talk yourself into going to Happy Hour orContinue reading “People just don’t understand… no one gets [me]”