Haunting Nightmares

All day feeling on edge not knowing why. Hands constantly shaking as if hopped up on caffeine. Heart beating loudly as if asking to be heard. Mind racing to figure out “what’s happening?”. At night, the answer finally comes. A flashback. Something not thought of since high school and couldn’t recall after waking. Sleepless nightContinue reading “Haunting Nightmares”

Am I going insane or is this really happening?

Emotional abuse usually takes place in private, meaning there are no witnesses validating your experience. After months or years of being emotionally abused, you begin to distrust your perceptions and even your sanity. Since you have invested your time and your heart in the relationship and your world revolves around him / her, you endContinue reading “Am I going insane or is this really happening?”

People just don’t understand… no one gets [me]

People with anxiety don’t have a train of thought. They have seven trains on four tracks that narrowly avoid each other when paths cross, and all the conductors are screaming. Every day is a challenge because you’re battling with yourself to go out and be social. You talk yourself into going to Happy Hour orContinue reading “People just don’t understand… no one gets [me]”

Anxiety – Memory Loss… is there a link?

Have you ever had that feeling where you’re in a fog and you’re unable to recall anything from your past, even if it was from last week or even the other day? Ever had the inability to think clearly? Welcome to life with extreme anxiety. A chemical imbalance of any kind throws everything off. ThisContinue reading “Anxiety – Memory Loss… is there a link?”

You were in charge of your family finances, or so your ex had you believe

My story: When my ex-husband and I got engaged he suggested we start a joint account to save for the wedding. While I didn’t 100% agree with him and countered with opening up a separate individual savings account to do the same thing, we ended up opening the joint account. Little did I know, thisContinue reading “You were in charge of your family finances, or so your ex had you believe”

Financial Abuse… that’s a thing?

When someone hears the words “domestic abuse” they associate it with physical abuse or verbal abuse. The truth is, financial abuse occurs just as frequently and is often the first sign of dating violence and domestic abuse. A study by the Centers for Financial Security found that 99% of domestic violence cases also involved financial abuse. The abuserContinue reading “Financial Abuse… that’s a thing?”

Control, Verbal Abuse and Violence

There is a stigma with domestic violence that has been around since before any of us were put on Earth. It is an enormous problem made difficult to see because those of us who are victims hide it, and also because it is hard to understand why those claiming to be close to us, endContinue reading “Control, Verbal Abuse and Violence”

DID YOU IGNORE THE RED FLAGS? YOU’RE NOT ALONE

My story: I have been going back and forth on whether or not to launch this blog. Not because I don’t want to share my story, but because I am terrified of being judged for what I’ve been through and even more terrified my abusers will find me. For 18 years I hid behind aContinue reading “DID YOU IGNORE THE RED FLAGS? YOU’RE NOT ALONE”