Signing Off

It is with a heavy heart that I have decided not to continue my journey on Insta, Twitter or blog. Unfortunately, navigating this journey of trying to shed light on narcissism and domestic violence has caused more harm to my healing. I have encountered more flashbacks, triggers, anxiety and nightmares so it is time forContinue reading “Signing Off”

Life Milestones

When thinking about life, remember: Day to day life is a challenge. A struggle. So many ups, so many downs, so many paths unknown. No amount of guilt can change the past and no amount of anxiety can change the future. Always have light guiding you to your serenity.

Haunting Nightmares

All day feeling on edge not knowing why. Hands constantly shaking as if hopped up on caffeine. Heart beating loudly as if asking to be heard. Mind racing to figure out “what’s happening?”. At night, the answer finally comes. A flashback. Something not thought of since high school and couldn’t recall after waking. Sleepless nightContinue reading “Haunting Nightmares”

Failure… Life failed me, I failed me

Last night I cried myself to sleep wishing I was back with my ex. That despite all the abuse, I would at least feel wanted. All I have ever wanted, all anyone with a soul wants…is to be loved for who they are. They want to hear “I love you” daily, be held and huggedContinue reading “Failure… Life failed me, I failed me”

People just don’t understand… no one gets [me]

People with anxiety don’t have a train of thought. They have seven trains on four tracks that narrowly avoid each other when paths cross, and all the conductors are screaming. Every day is a challenge because you’re battling with yourself to go out and be social. You talk yourself into going to Happy Hour orContinue reading “People just don’t understand… no one gets [me]”