Signing Off

It is with a heavy heart that I have decided not to continue my journey on Insta, Twitter or blog. Unfortunately, navigating this journey of trying to shed light on narcissism and domestic violence has caused more harm to my healing. I have encountered more flashbacks, triggers, anxiety and nightmares so it is time forContinue reading “Signing Off”

Life Milestones

When thinking about life, remember: Day to day life is a challenge. A struggle. So many ups, so many downs, so many paths unknown. No amount of guilt can change the past and no amount of anxiety can change the future. Always have light guiding you to your serenity.

Haunting Nightmares

All day feeling on edge not knowing why. Hands constantly shaking as if hopped up on caffeine. Heart beating loudly as if asking to be heard. Mind racing to figure out “what’s happening?”. At night, the answer finally comes. A flashback. Something not thought of since high school and couldn’t recall after waking. Sleepless nightContinue reading “Haunting Nightmares”

Failure… Life failed me, I failed me

Last night I cried myself to sleep wishing I was back with my ex. That despite all the abuse, I would at least feel wanted. All I have ever wanted, all anyone with a soul wants…is to be loved for who they are. They want to hear “I love you” daily, be held and huggedContinue reading “Failure… Life failed me, I failed me”

You deserve happiness

Forgiveness is the best form of love. It takes a strong person to say sorry and an even bigger person to forgive. As we embark on the 2019 Holiday season, remember it’s okay to take a break, a moment for yourself. It’s okay to be selfish if it means rediscovering your own power and happiness.Continue reading “You deserve happiness”

Am I going insane or is this really happening?

Emotional abuse usually takes place in private, meaning there are no witnesses validating your experience. After months or years of being emotionally abused, you begin to distrust your perceptions and even your sanity. Since you have invested your time and your heart in the relationship and your world revolves around him / her, you endContinue reading “Am I going insane or is this really happening?”

People just don’t understand… no one gets [me]

People with anxiety don’t have a train of thought. They have seven trains on four tracks that narrowly avoid each other when paths cross, and all the conductors are screaming. Every day is a challenge because you’re battling with yourself to go out and be social. You talk yourself into going to Happy Hour orContinue reading “People just don’t understand… no one gets [me]”

Anxiety – Memory Loss… is there a link?

Have you ever had that feeling where you’re in a fog and you’re unable to recall anything from your past, even if it was from last week or even the other day? Ever had the inability to think clearly? Welcome to life with extreme anxiety. A chemical imbalance of any kind throws everything off. ThisContinue reading “Anxiety – Memory Loss… is there a link?”

You’re trying your hardest, but it doesn’t seem to be working

Ever since your ex said “we need to talk,” you have been trying to process, grasp and grieve. No matter what you try, you seem to end up back at the beginning. Taking one step forward only to put you two steps back when making progress. You’re trying your hardest, all the time, to pushContinue reading “You’re trying your hardest, but it doesn’t seem to be working”

You were in charge of your family finances, or so your ex had you believe

My story: When my ex-husband and I got engaged he suggested we start a joint account to save for the wedding. While I didn’t 100% agree with him and countered with opening up a separate individual savings account to do the same thing, we ended up opening the joint account. Little did I know, thisContinue reading “You were in charge of your family finances, or so your ex had you believe”